I attended a funeral yesterday.
For most folks, funerals are those things that you attend during those crises moments of your life. Your loved one passed away. Your friend died unexpectedly or after a long battle with a disease. Then, for an hour or so, you are transported to a service at a church or a funeral home, then over to a gravesite, then maybe to a luncheon, then you abruptly reenter into life without them.
The whole thing is momentary and surreal.
But, because of my profession, funerals are less momentary and more normal. I've attended many of them. I've sang at a few of them. And I've officiated a few of them.
And the more I attend or play a part in, the more I think this thought:
This is not right.
It's not right that we have to die. It's not right our bodies decay and succumb to disease. It's not right that tragedy can snuff out a perfectly healthy child or mom or grandma.
It's not right that a wife has to look towards her remaining years with the burden of the label "widow." It's not right that a son has to muster up whatever words he can while choking back tears to properly eulogize the most significant man in his life.
It's just not right.
It's normal, no doubt. It's the one thing all of us will have in common. We will all be there one day, and we've all seen others go before us. Death is, at this point in our history, a part of all of our lives.
Nevertheless: it's not right.
This is not how God designed this world, this life, this humanity. He did not design it with death as the outcome, much less the norm. Instead He designed it to be one where we live with him and one another fully, purely, righteously, and perfectly, forever.
This reality, this picture of the world is so foreign - so unlike the world that we've grown so accustomed to, that it inspires almost no emotion in us. It's like the number 15 trillion. That number is so foreign to what I experience personally everyday that it's less real to me.
But it was that way once. Death was once the number 15 trillion. Death was the thing that was so foreign that it wasn't real to us.
And death will be that way again. We'll eventually remember death not by its sting of loss, but more like a distant and murky past that has been washed away from our present life.
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Today at the funeral I wondered:
How many funerals has God been to as He's watched over us for these last few thousand years?
How many processions? How many tears? How many holes dug in the ground? How much hopelessness, helplessness, sorrow, and cries of grief?
How heavy his heart must feel in those many moments. For us, they are a few heavy moments over the course of a life. For him, He has seen these and felt these by the thousands and perhaps millions every single day.
As I imagine that, I think I begin to feel what Jesus must have felt in his heart when he went to a funeral of his close friend, Lazarus. From John 11:
When Mary reached the place where Jesus was and saw him, she fell at his feet and said, “Lord, if you had been here, my brother would not have died.”
33 When Jesus saw her weeping, and the Jews who had come along with her also weeping, he was deeply moved in spirit and troubled.
This is one of those places in Scripture where I think translators have sentimentalized or sterilized the language a bit too much. The first phrase that described what Jesus felt, "deeply moved in spirit," has in the original language an aspect of agitation or even anger. The second phrase, "troubled," is to be stirred up on your spirit with troubling questions - agitated at something that just doesn't seem to make sense.
John 1:1 tells us that in the beginning was the Word - Jesus. And the Word was with God. And the Word was God.
When Jesus looked upon his dead friend and into the eyes of his grieving friends, he saw past what they saw, and instead saw what it was once like. He remembered a world without death. He was there when it was created. And he could see through his death the day death would no longer be.
In fact, Jesus was the only one on earth for whom death was not normal or expected. It had no hold on him, for he was sinless. It had no claim to him, for he was righteous. It wasn't the great equilizer for him. Death was instead an opponent that stood defiantly against his Father's intentions, notching on its belt the lives of every single one of God's creations since Adam.
And while we know from Scripture that the looming cross leaned heavily upon Jesus' spirit as it approached, I can't help but think that Jesus had on his mind more than its pain.
He had on his mind every funeral that ever had been and ever would be.
And he had on his mind the day when there would be no more of them.
So the next time you have to watch a casket be lowered into the ground, and you feel the apparent finality of that moment, remember this:
If it houses a redeemed child of God, it will indeed one day be reopened.
Just like the one of the One Who Defeated Death.
